Saturday 27 April 2013

Running for Girls who Cannot

Yesterday while being interviewed on a radio program based out of Buffalo by Neil Boron of WDCX F.M. 99.5 I thought ahead to the upcoming marathon I am to run in Cleveland.  I thought of all the negative associated with the running of an actual marathon, but I also thought of the positive.  That is, when I write out all my thoughts and experiences of the months leading up to the marathon and post it to my blog. Life line is the name of Neil`s show and life line is what Ratanak International is providing for these girls in Cambodia.

The date is Sunday May 10 2009.  The time is 7.25 a.m.
I am standing outside Square One Shopping Mall in Mississauga.
I am with 1414 other people, crowded into a space that should accommodate 200.
Being an introvert, and someone who usually keeps away from large crowds.
I should be feeling extremely uncomfortable.
I am not, in fact I am jumping up and down in anticipation of what awaits me.
I have chosen today to run the full 42.2 km Mississauga Marathon as a means of raising funds and awareness for the New Song Center in Cambodia.
New Song is named after two girls Nhu and Sung.
The center rehabilitates children who have been forced to work as prostitutes.
I trained five months for today.
The last two months have been extremely difficult.
I have felt like there was a spiritual battle going on all around me.
I have had terrible nightmares.
I have had trouble sleeping.
I have been exhausted spiritually, more than physically.
I have felt like I have carried the weight of the 57 girls from New Song on my back.
Today I realize something has changed.
I realize these girls were with me when my father placed his arm on my shoulder and prayed for health, courage and victory before the race.
Today I will hear their voices, cheering me on as I run by the spectators lining the streets of Mississauga.
Today I will see their hands, as they pass me water and Gatorade at the refreshment stations.
Today I will see their feet, as they run before, beside, and behind me keeping my path clear from any obstructions.
On Wednesday I received an email from a friend of mine telling me "I pray that God shows you the faces of the girls when you run."
His prayer was answered.  Usually when I see their faces, they are in pain, they are terrified, they are broken, and they have tears in their eyes.
Today God has smashed their chains, and I see their faces.
They are smiling, they are satisfied, they are whole, and they are laughing.
Yes today is going to be an amazing day I think as I start my run.
The beginning of my run takes me through a very wealthy part of Mississauga.
I could visit, but I could never afford to live here.
The lots are measured in acres, not square feet.
The property values are listed in millions, not thousands.
The house sizes are thousands of square feet, not square feet.
Than I wonder how many men from this neighbourhood have been overseas to abuse children?
Than with almost a sense of dread I ask God an even tougher question.
Lord, even today as I run is there a man from this neighbourhood waiting at the airport?
Is he going to a less fortunate Country to take advantage of his economic strength to sexually abuse children?
My heart sinks, and I shiver as the answer yes comes back to me.
Turning down one street to step onto another I start a series of what if questions.
What if just one house on each street in this neighbourhood decides to sacrifice part of their abundance of wealth, and give it to the poor.
What a difference they could make.
I ran past four Churches that Sunday.
I thought what if one of these four Churches took seriously the charge that is throughout the whole Bible to look after widows and orphans in their distress?
What if one of these Churches realized that righteousness, and justice are the foundation of the Lord`s throne, and acted accordingly?
What if one out of every four Churches in Toronto acted this way?
What if one out of every four people in Toronto who call themselves Christians acted this way?
I dare say Toronto, and the rest of the world would become a better place.
The next part of the run is uneventful until the 27 km mark.
The steepest part of the run starts here and goes for the next km.
Whoever designed the course could not have possibly known the way the wind was to blow on the day of the run.
On top of the difficulty of running up the steepest part of the course, a  50 km/h wind was blowing in my face as I ran up the hill.
This was the toughest part of the run.
This was the toughest physical challenge I have ever faced.
Many people stopped running at this point, but I kept on.
At the top of the hill a strange thing happened.
A woman who I had not seen said "thank you you were the only thing that kept me going."  She sped up, and I never saw her again.
What she had done is to run directly behind me the whole way up the hill.
Since I was taller, and broader than her I took all the force of the wind.  She only had to concentrate on navigating the hill.
The girls of New Song have been taken out of prostitution, but they are starting the rest of their lives at the bottom of a steep hill.
When I intercede for them I am telling God I am willing to go to the bottom of the hill,  to lead them up.
Their struggles are not one kilometre as mine was, but they will have to climb this hill every day for the rest of their lives.
They don`t face wind, but they face shame, guilt, and discouragement as they climb the hill.

When I pray for these girls I believe God may take something satan wanted to add to the girls load, and place on mine.
So maybe the next time when I get an unexpected car repair a traumatic memory is kept from one of these girls.
So maybe when I do somebody else`s job at work without anybody seeming to notice, or thanking me.  Maybe one of these girls was spared some physical harm.
Maybe on one of those days when everything goes wrong from the time I wake up until the time I go to bed.
Instead of feeling sorry for myself, and asking God why?
Maybe I should thank God, because that day was the day when satan wanted to overwhelm one of these girls so much that they would give up and take their own life.
But God knowing the girls were weak that day had allowed me to carry their load.
And maybe, just maybe one day when I am walking in Heaven I will feel a little arm pulling at me.
I will look into the most beautiful eyes of a child I don`t know, but she seems to know me.
She will go on to say "thanks without you I would have not made it to here."
Everything should have been easy after this, but than I met up with someone I have named the obnoxious runner.
After turning the corner after the hill I noticed a man weaving wildly back and forth.
As I came closer to him I saw the reason for his erratic running pattern.
This man was blowing his nose without the benefit of kleenex, he tried to clear his nose at least ten times.
After almost being ran into the second time the old Larry came out.  I seriously considered taking this man`s number down and looking him up at the finish line.
Than my first and only laugh of the day.  I thought if I have enough energy to waste on anger at this point of the race I think I will be all right.
I increased my pace, and thankfully I did not see him again.
I realized through this experience many times satan put`s distractions in my life.

Maybe I don`t agree with someone in a group I belong to.  Maybe I feel left out. 
Maybe I feel someone talks too much.  Maybe I feel someone is getting too much attention.
What this does is much like with that man my focus goes from the race I am supposed to be running and the finish line, instead to the individual or situation that is distracting me.
Sadly I may even stop running.
At the 31 km mark my right calf starts to tingle.  This is not good, as I have battled this problem for the last two months.
Three people who interceded for me gave me Hebrew 12: 12-13 as a promise from God when this injury first flared up.
One wrote me a letter saying this:
12 Therefore strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees
13 Make level paths for your feet, so the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed.
She went on to say:  I sense that the final words about healing the lame are not just for you Larry, but also for the girls in Cambodia who have been "lamed" prevented from walking away by their captivity, and lamed in their spirits as well.
I sense the Lord is saying that as you Larry, strengthen your knees and make level paths for your feet in running the marathon, the awareness and prayer and funding you inspire will be used by the Lord in bringing not disability, but healing to the girls.
I`m reminded of what Don Brewster said about secular mental health professionals thinking that the girls rescued from slavery are so damaged they will never recover- yet Jesus heals them!
With these thoughts running through my head, I repeated those two verses out loud for the next while and the pain in my calf went away.
All along the course there were many signs with sayings that were mean`t to encourage the runners.
At the 36 km mark one caught my eye.
It said:
Pain is temporary
Pride is forever.
I changed it to:
Pain is temporary
Glory is forever
New Song houses 57 girls.
I have heard estimates that from 1.25 to 1.5 million young children are being forced into prostitution.
Sadly not every one of these girls will be rescued.  Some will die as they lived as virtual slaves.
Yet, this is the second time that God has shown me what is in store for these girls.
Pain is not a word that can even begin to describe what these girls have had to endure each day for their lives.
As much as pain is not a strong enough word to describe these girls conditions.
The word glory need to be multiplied by infinity to explain what God (their creator) has in store for these girls when he brings them to spend the rest of eternity with Himself.
They are going to be given the highest places of honour in Heaven.
The run is finished but I am not.
Two years ago a Conference was held in Toronto titled "Slaying the Giant" ending the sexual exploitation of children.
Another one of my intercessors gave me Job 29: 13 -17 as encouragement.
17 I broke the fangs of the wicked, and snatched the victims from their teeth.
I really like this because if you were to rescue someone by pulling them out of the oppressor`s mouth.  The victim is free, but oppressor is free to grab another victim.
If the fangs of the oppressor are broken.  The victim is free, and the oppressor is not able to grab any more victims.
I believe Jesus is in the process of breaking the fangs of the wicked.
Two stories from the last week.
Craigslist has been forced to shut down their erotic service ads.  Now they have to be monitored. (this was a favourite way for pedophiles to communicate with each other.)
One girl from Svay Park who attended Rahab`s house in Cambodia ( a former brothel turned into a Church) has been rescued from being trafficked.

Larry
  

Thursday 25 April 2013

Just 13 Girls


This is my favourite writing.  It was written in 2010 after the Mississauga Marathon.  This was by far the most difficult, yet most rewarding marathon I have ever ran.  The rocks I wrote about are set up in my backyard as a constant reminder that the girls in Cambodia are Not Forgotten.
In a radio interview I quoted from a song that sums up why I run.

  Just a Girl No Doubt
  Take this pink ribbon from my eyes
   I`m exposed
  And it`s no big surprise
  Don`t you think I know
  Exactly where I stand
  This world is forcing me
  To hold your hand
  I`m just a girl, all pretty and petite
  So don`t let me have any rights
  I`m just a girl in the world
  That`s all you`ll let me be
  I`m just a girl, living in captivity

 I am sending some thoughts to you and my results from today.  Much like a race itself you do not know the results right until the end, so it will be here.

Did anybody see the movie UP.  Right now I am walking around my house much like the old man cartoon character did in the movie.  My pain will go away while the ones I run for will not have this luxury tomorrow.
On the drive to the race my father had 'Be thou my vision' on his c.d player.  I had him play it twice as I pondered what will my vision be today?
I had a sleepless Saturday night.  Chuck Liddell a former U.F.C champion earned the nickname 'The Iceman.'   As he would be sound asleep in his dressing room before a big fight and would have to be woken up.  His trainer said 'you must have ice in your veins.'
 
I am not as fortunate as I realised everything was totally different from last year.
Last year I was injured in my training and I had doubts about the how well I would be able to run.  Just getting to the starting line was a relief and I had no real goal or time just to finish.  The stress of the previous six weeks were gone and I walked up to the starting line calm and relaxed.
This year was totally different my training was excellent!  I was healthy, my daughters were healthy, I even had picked up a 'Fundraising Manager'  my father.  All these things allowed me to train very efficiently.  I had noticed an almost awe like tone in various people who heard about someone who had ran faster than the average person in races.  For a Marathon Boston is the place to be.  There is a very high standard a runner has to achieve before they are allowed to enter this race, simply put it is like The Olympics of Marathon running.

Three months ago I noticed my times were on pace to qualify me for The Boston Marathon.  Quietly I kept this to myself but I started making this my goal.  One day while running I thought aim for Boston next year and use the knowledge, experience, contacts, and credibility to organise a small maybe 5km walk/run race.  If even 100 people show up and raise $50 each that is $5 000 dollars for Ratanak, not bad for one days work!  The bonus is I would make sure I was in an administrative role so I could watch the others run.

So now all I had to do was to run The Mississauga Marathon in less than 3 hours 31 minutes.
I shared yesterday at a meeting how my training took me far down the Etobicoke Creek Trail at the end of this trail there is an island like piece of land where if the water is low I could cross on a path of rocks. I than would run over many rocks which may have been covered over by water the day before.  It was a surreal, and beautiful experience.
On my long 12 to 23 mile runs I took to picking up rocks that caught my eye.  I thought these rocks represent girls in Cambodia who have been freed from sexual slavery.
Overall I picked up 13 rocks/girls.
 
As I lined up to start I thought 13 girls represent 1 girl every 2 miles I must run today.
Last year I wrote how The girls from NewSong were able to help me as I felt they were all around me on the race course.  This year I realised things were going to be quite different.  I had picked up the 13 rocks from the stream bed down my Ravine and put them in a sack but this year the time I wanted to complete this race would put all 13 of them back in my sack and I would have to carry them on my back as far as I could when I ran.  I would be allowed to take them out of the sack at various times during the race finalising their safety.
The gun goes off and I am off to a fast start which is part of my plan, as last year I got stuck in a large pack of slower than myself runners and wasted a lot of time and energy swerving through them.
 
3 km mark I am sweating not a good sign as it is hot outside and running on asphalt that has been heated up by the Sun was going to be a challenge.
I release the Ratanak Logo shaped rock my vision is revealed to me a line from a song sang by freed slaves many years ago.   I hear a little voice singing ' no more auction block for me.' My pack feels light and I am literally tearing up the race course. 
I do not know the exact distance but the next two rocks  I take out of my pack bring me great joy.
 
S.N. for you Lisa.  Next comes L, yes for you Charlene. Two more faint voices 'no more auction block for me.'
I am really feeling good, but I am sweating quite a lot. Each race has certain people who are called pacers they are volunteers who run a certain pace to help other runners achieve their goals. At my Marathon they wore bunny ears hence the name pace bunnies.
 
At the start I picked a spot between the 3.15 and the 3.30 bunny. I thought no matter what happens I cannot let the 3.30 bunny pass me.
At the 18 km mark me and another man cruise by the 3.15 pace bunny. He turns to me and says 'we are on pace for a 3.10 Marathon.'
 
I am releasing various rocks and hearing the faint voices sing 'no more auction block for me' but although my time is very good and I have released many rocks my pack seems to be getting heavier and I am starting to labour.  My month long cold seems to be catching up with me.
 
24 km to 28 km the 3.15 bunny overtakes me I have not only hit the wall I feel the wall has crashed in on me.  I cannot begin to describe the feeling that came over me than, exhaustion, discouragement, despair, hopelessness are insufficient to describe my state of mind.  Looking back I believe the enemy of my soul  who was restrained as I trained for this run was allowed to take his best shots at me than.  What to do?  Pray?  Good idea!
 
One of the most brutally honest prayers of my life.  'Lord if I am chasing my glory than let me quit, but if you have called me to this than find a way for me to finish for I feel I cannot go on.  Send me an angel to strengthen me.
 
I was sent my Angel!
I had a certain rock I wanted to take right to the finish line.  This girl has had one of the most miserable lives that I know of.  A Canadian man made pornographic video tapes with her when she was very young.  She is still in Prostitution right now, it is the only life she has ever known.  She is lost right now afraid and un trusting of the only people who actually care for and would love to help her.  She once asked does anybody know or care about me?  She is someone Brain McConaghy has prayed for even on the point of exhaustion.  The NewSong Center is half named after her.  The lady I am to take out of my pack is no other than Sung, my very unlikely Angel but if anything I thought I have to finish today if even just for her.  Her voice is louder and deeper; tinged with far more sorrow than the other girls but a glimmer of hope goes into me 'no more auction block for me.'
 
The enemy of my soul sees this spark and tries to put it out immediately.  My legs start cramping, not just my calves, but my hamstrings, and even my front right quadriceps muscle.  I had to use all of my effort for the next while not to have a leg buckle underneath me.
Last year I noticed signs as I ran.  This year my focus and now my challenges kept me from noticing too many outside influences.  Someone with chalk had written 'Surrender' at the 30 km mark.

I guess someone has a warped sense of humour.  Another spark is put in me as I angrily shake my head NO!  The only surrender here today will be the enemies grasp on these girls once and for all.  I will not surrender today!  I must finish this race!  The next 6 kms are pure torture between keeping my legs stable and my mental state, it was definitely not  fun.

36 km  I take the matching rocks out of my pack. They were picked up on my longest run of training 23 miles.  I feel they are sisters possibly even twins.  I dig deep and keep going 'no more auction block carries to me over the crowd.
 
38 km a voice from the crowd.  My race bib has my name on it.  A man shouts encouragement 'Keep it up Larry, your form looks great and your camouflage even better.'
Interesting in two years I have never been asked about my choice of outfit.  I ran with 1700+ people on Sunday I was the only one dressed like this.  To me my run is a day of battle, a day of war.  Solomon mentions a time for everything even War, hence my outfit.
I think of a another man who was said to have a Heart after God.  He made many mistakes but God still used him very mightily.  Before fighting the Giant Goliath; David said he had killed a Bear, and a Lion so what was Goliath to him?
I thought maybe last year I defeated a Bear, this year I am in a fierce battle with a ferocious Lion.  Perhaps I am being prepared for a battle next year with some kind of Giant.  On the surface that does not look like good news but the spark became a fire within me, as by looking at the times after the race I actually ran the last 4 km in a pace similar to what I ran earlier in the race. 
Now I can see the finish line.  I actually sprint the last 50 metres, as I cross the line I think one more rock to take out of sack.

I do not know her name, she is tiny, she is beautiful, she is unmarked, and bears no scars physical,sexual or spiritual.  Yes this precious little rock has never been or ever will be subjected to sexual abuse.
Her chorus is a little different than the other girls' I never was on the auction block.'
 
A band plays a song at the finish line that means a lot to a group of people I know who went to Cambodia last year and the girls they bonded with all who probably are still on the Auction block.
Joy from my core group you were in that park.  The Song was 'no woman no pride, no woman no cry.'
 
With the stress of the race over and my pack finally empty comes my reward.  I wrote before sometimes a touch of Heaven reaches out and gives us just a glimpse a small taste of what it will be like.
All 13 girls appear before me.  They are various size and ages.  Most are from Cambodia. Two are from Vietnam, and one is from Thailand.
Angels cannot sing better than this.
They sing

  No more auction block for me
  No more, no more
  No more auction block for me
  Many thousands gone

  No more strange man`s hands on me
  No more, no more
  No more rapes of me
  Many thousands gone

  No more being sold for me
  No more, no more
  No more beatings for me
  Many thousands gone

  No more auction block for me
  No more, no more
  No more auction block for me
  Many thousands gone
 
Now back to visible reality.  My Mother and Father, my wife and two daughter`s greet me at the finish line.  In football a game ball is given to a most valuable player.  I wear my own shirt so my Father is given my Mississauga Marathon shirt.  He worked diligently, tirelessly, and efficiently in raising funding for the NewSong Center and released me to train. My Mom hugs me and as a picture is being taken says 'try not to look so tired Larry.'  Thanks Mom.
 
Gloria my most beautiful wife kisses me an whispers I am so proud of you! I am proud of her not once did she complain or question the many hours I put into preparing for today.
Katarina gave me my gift on Thursday she said 'I know why you are running, I know what has happened to those girls and I am proud of you.'  Although saddened a 10 year old has to know about such things, how about the 10 year old girls in Cambodia who not only know about these things but have experienced them repeatedly for at least the last four years.
Do you believe in miracles?  I am starting to.  Isabella precious, beautiful Isabella the same girl who last year told me 'Daddy you did terrible', the same girl who said only a top ten finish would be acceptable for me this year.  Isabella ran and gave me a big hug and said 'Daddy you did very well, I am also proud of you.'
 
Now to the end the finish line so to speak.  Was I chasing my own glory?  Was I mistaken in my goals?  Would I let you guys, God and the girls of Cambodia down.
1717 people ran this years Mississauga Marathon.  I finished 126th.

I needed my time to be better than 3 hours 31 minutes.
I finished in 3 hours 19 minutes.
I am indeed going to run in The Boston Marathon next year. (which I have)
Hopefully in two years organize a small race. (which has been done.)
Thank you 

Larry